emotional vent

I am beyond grateful to even be able to Bear a child. And I can't wait to have my son in my arms. But I'm having such an emotional day today I'm so tired of being in pain, these back aches, not sleeping at night, having indigestion after almost everything I eat, being constipated, being so overwhelming tired, being nauseous, having these crazy mood swings, having head aches, feeling so ugly, being so self conscious.I just want to feel like myself again. I just need to go back to sleep for the rest of the day and wake up tomorrow hopefully feeling better.