My husband and me had hoped that the spotting I had on Monday was implantation bleeding. It only lasted a couple of hrs. And after that it was gone. It's Friday, 4 days later and af appearantly decided to show up after all. My husband and me are so upset. We really wanted to believe this was it. I feel like it's never going to happen again for us. My daughter is everything to me and we wanted to give her a sibling so bad. I feel like our dreams just got crushed in front of us like it was nothing. The 1st time we got pregnant was easy and also unexpected. And now that we're trying for baby #2 it's just been so hard. We've been going at it for a little over a yr and feel like it's never going to happen for us. Why is it so difficult?! With the holidays around the corner it just makes me feel depressed more. The only thing on my gift list this holiday season is to have another baby. I'm ready to throw in the towel because it just seems like it's not going to happen. Sry everyone just needed to vent. Plz no rude comments.