I feel like a horrible person for being like this, but I want to be pregnant so badly and of course a couple of days ago my sister in law announced that she was pregnant with her 2nd. Of course I am excited as I will get a new niece or nephew, but at the same time I want to be pregnant and now I feel like I can't because it wouldn't feel special. I don't want to feel like I always have to compete with her. Am I just being stupid and selfish? And I also want my first pregnancy to be very special with my family and I feel like I would just get thrown to the back burner. At this point, I almost want to wait until she has her baby in March so I can have the pregnancy experience I want.