Hoping this one sticks.

I had a MC in early October at 5w and just got a BFB 5 days ago. Think I'm about 4w now. Totally scared and trying not to worry over every twinge. Not seeing the doctor until Jan 23 when around 9 weeks so anything can happen between now and then. Last time I had no symptoms. This time having light cramps here and there, bad indigestion, constipation, lots of bloating and gas. Not sure if that's good or bad. Really unsure of what's normal and what's going on inside me. Every day that goes by with no bleeding is a relief. And the next few weeks until I see the doc are going to be so hard. I want to be happy and excited but I'm just cautious and anxious. We got married in April and can't wait to have a baby. Unfortunately when you have a MC with your first pregnancy then it sort of changes the whole experience for you. Clearly I can get pregnant easily just not sure if I can stay that way. I just wish I had some reassurance that everything will be okay this time so I can enjoy being pregnant.