This is me at this moment. I've had a head ache for days and I've been slowly getting more and more frustrated, not with the new baby, just frustrated in general. Between waking up to feed the baby and waking up to pump and staying up to get the older Kids ready for school and making them breakfast, lunch, dropping them off, then feed and pump again all day I am getting ZERO sleep. Haven't slept since I gave birth, I'm so tired that the little time I have free during baby's nap I just sit there and cant even think straight. My home is a mess and I HATE seeing it this way, and yes my husband helps me out as much as he could but hes also gone most of the day since he works pretty far he leaves at 4 am and comes home at 8 pm. My mother in law had said she would be staying with me to help out with the kids and chores while I recovered and she ended up not helping at all. I'm already 16 days PP and Im still in so much pain down there, most likely from going up and down the stairs and in n out of my car and not resting at all. I'm sooo tired you guys, physically and mentally, It finally got to me today, I just broke down crying. I came home from picking up my kids and layed down with baby and completely blocked everything from my mind for a few hours and just slept. I woke up to my 6 year old trying to open up a jelly jar to make himself a sandwich cause he was starving.. i feel horrible I didnt even feed them. Anyway I guess I just needed to vent for a minute.