New Territory!

My last pregnancy ended at 26 weeks to the day, with an emergency c-section, and infant loss (my precious daughter) and 3 months of NICU time. Not ideal at all, and very tough on both my husband and I. To say the least, having my first child(ren)--not a good experience at all.

I figured this new pregnancy would be a breeze--and it has been until now--i'm getting SO nervous and anxious because I've never been this far along before, and I don't know what to expect!

The entire third trimester is like a scary, mysterious void that I know nothing about...and I feel like I should, because I have a 17 month old...but I never got this far with him.

Needless to say, i've begun freaking out. I'm so nervous and anxious all the time, and I just feel like a ticking time bomb! I'm going for an attempted VBAC, but every time I think about it, I panic. Actually, I panic about everything. I'm just a nervous wreck!

I realize i've never *really* had a baby before. Not a normal one, anyway--my son came home on oxygen, didn't cry for 6 months, and weighed 4 lbs 13 oz when he came home. He was hand-held, and quiet, and so so sweet...not your average newborn. Now i'm faced with the fact that IF i make it to 40 weeks, i'm going to be bringing home a REAL BABY! Not a miniature one! I'm so nervous that sometimes I cry.

Is there any other preemie moms out there who feel just completely lost right now? I need support!