I'm sure that by now, everyone has heard about Terrance Crutcher. Since learning about his death, I've been having a tough time sleeping. I have had two cars stall on me in the middle of busy road ways and both times I've called the police for assistance and never thought that I or someone else could be killed by the police for this very thing. I've been playing the story over and over in my head, thinking about my brothers. Both are large men and knowing that Mr. Crutcher was killed for being a large black man,and therefore "dangerous" is freaking me out. I just had a long talk with my younger brother telling him that he cannot go out with friends and stay out late because I'm afraid. I'm afraid for myself and my anxiety has been attacking me in full force lately. I have so many panic attacks because I'm scared of being attacked for my skin color and possibly being killed and never seeing my daughter. I know it sounds over dramatic, but I do suffer from depression and several anxiety disorders, so I tend to blow things out of proportion in my mind. But I'm trying to figure out how to cope with this. It's all super overwhelming and I have very few people I can talk to about this offline that won't argue with me or think I'm being political or a butt hurt liberal. Anyway, any thoughts are appreciated.