Story of my child life so far..... I was cleaning the house and ran into a pregnancy test had a couple laying around since my fiancée and I have been trying to get knock up for a while. Baby fever. So I took the pregnancy test with the already assumption that it would come out negative like everyone before. We had yried for over a year. But to my test and my understanding the test it was positive couldn't believe so took another one and went to three clinics the next day one for blood and the other urine samples before telling my fiancée the news. Up and up he excited im excited our five year old is happy out of the world. But remeber the title is feeling empty. So a few days later I seen blood brown color blood I freak out. So I went into the hospital about a week ago because seen some more same color (no blood clots) blood pathetic and flew to the hospital.... Waited and waited about 6 hours to be seen after me pacing, rocking ,praying go back and fourth to the bathroom checking to see the conditions done there. Oh no oh no I wondered this is not good filling my head with images that I may never be able to see or feel now. I waited some more. Finally the nurse came out out and called to take me back. I went through urine, blood and then ultrasound. I had already in my head prepared for the worst and prayed for the best. I cross my fingers and spread them wide and the ultrasound tech looked inside. Click, click, beep is all I could hear as the monitor took images of my insides. I could tell by her body language things weren't good. She looked at me and stated I cannot go over this with you they are for the doctor too. Omg I thought your in on it too just to have me here in the land of oz(oblivious that is). So I was wheeled back into my room for my evaluation. The doctor came and did a pelvic exam and went over my blood result. She said Ms.Falls your cervix is closed and your hcg level are climbing but there was no baby on the ultrasound I'm sorry but you may have a had a miscarriage. I wanted to cry but the little boy standing beside my bed was crying already so I comforted him and told him it would be ok. She said I would like you to contact your OBGYN tomorrow to follow up on labs. The discharge nurse came in and read me the medical terminology threatened abortion. I didn't like the term so she explained it to me. She said that it means I maybe threaten to miscarry and right now i was still pregnant. My emotions rose to a little bit of excitement. The next day I went to my obgyn and inform them of my ER visit. They asked me to do labs and I did those 3-4 days were hard trying to tell if there was vital life inside of me or if it had it slip through the cracks of mother nature grip. My mood ,my lifestyle,my thinking process with out of order for a while everything was baby intensified eat this do this my fincaee and son were in on it.😘(I love them) Soooooo back to labs!!! so results are in and my anxious butt. I'm so anxious I'm pacing the floor in the house I touching and looking for things in the awkward places. The secretary come on and she is not the person to speak with oh no already in my head. So I tell hery info and the nature of the call she says "let me find someone for you." All I think is this is not good. She comes back on "I'm sorry I can not go over your results the doctor and his staff are busy with patients at this time. Would you like to hold . I replied" for how long"? she said" ten to fifteen minutes". I then asked from what your seeing and notes do you think it's worth me waiting?? She stated oh yes I do. My stomach drop as if I was on a rollercoaster going down the first low point from the highest view. Breathe breathe I prayed silently over and over and I waited and my anticipation grew more and more vivid. She came to the phone and I exhaled waiting to hear her response. 'Hello"?? She "yes I'm looking you up and appointment for an ultrasound she your labs does indicate a pregnancy can you cone in in the September 30"?." yes I sure can". I smile came to ear to ear. Ever since then I had been mixed with emotions. But in the back of my mind its always that thought of what the doctor put in my head of the miscarriage she also said it could be to early to detect the baby. I have been bleeding occasionally but not too much usually when I urinate. I'm soo nervous I feel emptied because my fiancée and son are so happy its not funny I trying to prepare myself for the worst and pray for the better. I just keep thinking that I miscarry even though I feel something inside of me or maybe I crazy Lol. Who know I won't until sept 30th. I will try and keep a blog of the pregnancy no matter the outcome document changes pros and con's. If there is anyone reading this thank you and my the higher spirit be with you through whatever your going through. Please if feel to drop advice ,questions concerns. I hope u enjoy and you read more. Next big one Worry warrior coming next sept 30th.