I've made it to the second trimester, finally! I'm already feeling so impatient about meeting my little one. I go Friday for an early scan to find out if my baby will be a prince or princess, best birthday present ever!

One problem though, I'm so nervous about miscarriage. I stress constantly about money issues, I've had a tough time finding a job due to being pregnant. Relationship stress because of everything going on around us and because of our past coming back to haunt us. I was on depression and anxiety medicine before I got pregnant, I quit taking it the day I found out I was pregnant because my baby is more important to me. The only thing is, my anxiety and depression are through the roof now and I don't know what to do, I can't find motivation, I worry constantly about things I shouldn't worry about, especially miscarriage. I'm so scared of losing the one thing that gave me hope to get out of such a dark place! Me worrying constantly makes me and my SO argue. I literally can't help it, I just feel like I'm at such a loss. It's breaking my heart, I love my baby and my SO more than anything. I don't know how to get out of this rut! I want a happy, healthy baby and a happy, healthy relationship. 😣

Sorry this was all over the place, I have so much on my mind!