Want to goback to normal

Kelsei
September 16,2016 was my due date I miscarried February 12, 2016 on my 22nd birthday I'm still sad and don't know how to cope I don't talk about it much I just kind of cry in silence or to myself my fiance is very supportive but I don't think it hurt him the way it hurt me I try to get pass it but everytime I have a period I get sad all over again and I don't want to bring it up to him over and over this month has been really hard for me and I still stray away from pregnant women or new borns because I can't handle it yet idk I'm tired of hurting about it I want my life back to where it was before I even found out I was pregnant just want to go back to normal