I take pregnancy tests often just to make sure I know what's going on down there. Every time I do there's a bit of relief but also a tinge of sadness. I'm not actively trying to have a kid, but oh how wonderful it'd be. I wouldn't be able to afford all of the things I would want it to have, but I am so excited to start a family. Maybe I should get on birth control so that I'd quit having these moments.