I am a labor/postpartum doula with baby fever...

This has proven to be really hard... I thought working with women and babies would maybe hinder my baby fever. Boy, was I wrong. I'm 22, with little income as of right now, living with my parents. I cannot, for the life of me, shake this baby fever. It has driven me to tears, even when I'm not in the "emotional" part of my cycle. I just want to experience pregnancy and especially labor; it just excites me to no end!! This sucks. Kind of just wanted to vent, since my boyfriend is horrified by the thought of having a baby before we have our finances in check. Okay okay, I know that is an extremely valid point, but the baby fever is not breaking anytime soon. Thanks for reading, send me some virtual strength!!!