embarrassing

Hi, I'm super embarrassed about even posting this anonymously. For years, since around second grade, I have pulled out my eyelashes. When they are fully grown they are beautiful and I love my eyelashes😔. I can't describe to you exactly what kind of impulse makes me do this. I hate it!! I live in fear of people asking me where all my lashes are, "oh my god what happened to your eyes" is something I get all the time. I'm not good at lying so I immediately freeze and its oh so awkward and very shameful.