Trying to stay positive

Samantha
Backstory: I am 30 joing the Army National Guard at 17 served 6yrs one yr in Iraq. When I joined a fee months in i broke my right femur had surgery and had three long screws put in. Since then the hip has always been an issue. Ive always for years had to take pain meds to just make it through the day. I was supposed to get seen ten yrs after that surgery to have hip checked get screws out. Never did i was caught up in life. Got married now 34 weeks pregnant.....
The last two weeks i have been a mess because of the hip. My right side is shot, right foot 24/7 swollen to the point where i swear i dont even have a right foot no feeling. I dont sleep at night because i cant breathe on my left side, hurts on right side, cant sleep any way comfortably. I am a special education teacher i am on my feet all day at work. Work is hell 😔
I am getting my csection date when i go for my appt with my dr on the 6th. I am hoping once i have that date i can just focus on that and stay strong. Yes i am a tough cookie yes i e been through a war zone etc.......but this feeling of being helpless because there is nothing i can do to ease this hip pain...has me getting depressed. My shower is this sunday and i just want to crawl under a rock 😖 Just needed to vent...