I love all my kids but with the baby still not sleeping through the night I really don't know how I'm going to cope with an extra 2 aswell, my partner is always at work and when he is hope he rarely helps out without a fight and as for support my friends have lost interest now I can't get drunk with them and I'm 200+ miles from my family and his is next to useless, they try but the last time I left baby with my MiL he came back in a dirty nappy that was leaking everywhere and had clearly been like it for hours, and the last time she had the older two one of them managed to fall in to a river bed and get stuck in the mud and lose his shoes.

On top of that I have SPD with my first physio appiontment tomorrow so hopefully I can at least stop it getting worse.

Guess I'm just hoping I'm not alone and hat it will get better, really don't want to slip in to postnatal depression after they are born, I have barely gotten over it for the last one!