I've been taking clonazepam (Klonopin) .05mg since then and I'm almost 21. 

I want kids eventually and I know newborns are commonly known for coming out addicted to it and have to go through withdrawals.... this scares me so badly but if I do get pregnant and stop the medication, it's very likely I'd be in adult diapers in a wheel chair or bedrest with someone watching me the whole time or I'd be in the hospital for the full pregnancy... if I fell I'd probably miscarry. 

I know some mothers are prescribed propranolol for high blood pressure during pregnancy and it is a major drug that helps with essential tremor(so taking this medication) and safe to breast feed on later too. 

I want to work on getting of Clonazepam/Klonopin and see how I do on just propranolol, it's going to be really rough because my body has become addicted to it to control my tremors but it's a very danger drug and I really don't want to be on it much longer unless I don't have a choice.

I'd like to know some stories of mothers who have taken one of the mentioned prescriptions or more and how it went. I've read one horror story that a woman's child came out severely mentally and physically impaired while takingpropranolol but the other stories seemed to go well.

I also take Levothyroxine for my hypothyroidism, 

women's multivitamins(over the counter), allergy pills (non-drowsy over the counter), Ambien for insomnia but only taken when I absolutely need it, 

and Wellbutrin/Bupropion Extended Release for major depressive disorder.

I want to experience pregnancy and those feelings of kicks and knowing you are growing a human and a human that looks like you and the love of your life; childbirth would most likely be a c-section because of my past history of strokes and seizures. But if I can't, I'd love to adopt but my husband(yes I know I'm young and married) hasn't exactly come to terms with that yet because 'it's up to him to carry on his side of the family's DNA and last name' IF we have boy due to some other family stuff we don't know how it will go in future time.