I'm 17 and mommy to the most amazing, silliest, kind hearted baby boy in the world. and I love him w everything I've got. I'm going to tell you my story.. for all the ladies out there that don't think they can do it, have been told they can't, or just aren't ready. I'm telling you teen age girls that feel hopeless, got abandoned, and are terrified. or even the grown women feeling this way. I'm here to tell you. THERE IS HOPE. YOU ARE STRONG. & if no one else believes in you, I just want you to know GOD HAS A PLAN FOR YOU & your life. you are beautiful and you are loved.

I met this guy in the 5th grade and I was extremely shy so I never talked to him. we both had some issues going on in our life and just weren't very outgoing. once 7th grade came around we became BEST friends. we talked all the time. that summer he had admitted that he really like me but I just wanted to stay friends. I guess something in me knew either I would hurt him or I would fall completely head over heals for him. so we just remained friends. the next year I started to develop more feelings for him and confessed to him that summer. we started dating 4/25/14. EVERYTHING WAS PERFECT.. I was so happy, and so was he. i had told him I wanted to wait to have sex until I was married and he did too. he would always tell me how one day he was going to marry me and we would grow old together. I was so in love, I believed every word he said. who wouldn't want that, hope for that kind of life with someone they love. August of 2015 came around and everything was still going great. one day we had planned to go to the mall and then to his house to watch movies. well when we got to his house we started kissing and then he started kissing all over me and I stopped him and said "you know I wanna wait till I get married" and his reply was "I know I want to marry you. I'm going to marry you. just come on you know it's going to happen." being both 16 that wasn't possible but I gave in. I know what you're thinking. it's your fault, you shouldn't have given in or done something you weren't sure about. I know, I was just so blinded by love I didn't know what to do. so I ended up getting pregnant. of course I was scared. I didn't know how to tell my mom. I didn't know what to do. he left me, ignored me for 3 months.. and when I went to his house to just talk to him I got yelled at by his mom and sister and they all insisted a baby would ruin my life and I should get an abortion. I was so hurt. I would never do such a thing. he finally came to his senses after 7 months and wanted to be apart of mine and the baby's life again but that didn't last long at all. when I finally had the baby I didn't tell him until he was 8 days old and he came to see him for about 10 minutes then left and hasn't seen him since. now my son is almost 5 months and still no words from his "dad" though when my son was about 1 month I got a package in the mail saying he wanted full custody of my son. heck no I wasn't going to let that happen. so I've been through a lot. but I got through it all, and it was all worth it because me and my son are so happy together. just us. and I would say I'm a pretty good mom, I'm now 17 about to turn 18 and I exclusively breast feed him, I buy everything he needs with money I earn babysitting and selling my things I no longer need, I do everything required of me. yes some days are harder than others. but I'm doing it. I'm making it. for my son. not for anyone else. and you can do it. for your child and yourself. no matter how many people tell you you can't. YOU CANNNNN. have faith in yourself. if anyone needs any advise feel free to ask :)