So, I was diagnosed with biochemical depression a few weeks ago (but have been dealing with it for over a year). I go to therapy twice a week, have stayed at a physiatric hospital for a week (for self harm and being highly suicidal), and have been described antidepressants. The thing is, I really don't want to take them. I don't want medicine to fix my problems. I don't know why, but I just don't want to take them. (It is with a reason, I just don't know how to explain it.) However, I am 13 (yes, young, I use this as an advice and <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">period tracker</a> app) and my parents are making me. I don't really know what to do in this situation. If my mom tells me I have to, should I just pretend to take them and throw them away or something? I don't know. I'd appreciate any advice. Thank you.