So I'm thinking about having sex with my boyfriend. I'm a virgin, but he's not. I'm not very confident, and I've been through a lot of abuse. It's not that I don't want to, it's that every time we start doing things my anxiety leaps out and I can't. I won't let him touch below the belt (sometimes he grabs my butt but that's normal). I just get so confused... What should I do?