After having 3 kids I gained 90+ lbs. I recently had my 3rd and have lost 69 lbs. I've been having issues with myself feeling disgusted with my body. I wouldn't trade my kids for anything but It's affected my  marriage. During sex I will not let him turn on the light let alone touch my stomach. Right after I had my baby I found out he maturbated and was watching porn. So that added to my insecurities. I can't help to feel this way. I bash myself for anything and he hates that I do that. We have arguments over it all the time. Any advice?