The past couple of years it's felt like being on a roller coaster I've had 3 miscarriages a lap and a hysteroscopy (however its spelt) for endo. Finally made it past the 10 week mark . Went to my 12 week scan yesterday car broke down on the way (clutch went ) got to hospital saw my baby's heartbeat my eyes filled with tears I was so happy . Then I get told we are high risk for downs and chromosome abnormalities my heart broke . Now we have the awful decision of what to do .... we are thinking of CVS but I'm at a higher risk of miscarriage as I've had previous ones. I'm just feeling sad and worn out . Please no replies that babies with disabilities are blessings and I'm sorry but I don't believe in god either . Just wanted to type how I feel thought it might make me feel better . 😪. I haven't given up hope yet just want to feel happy again .