Begining to give up

Cd34 still nothing no af bfn been hospital for a check up they said if i dont come on to go bk to hospital for a scan but i hav small cm i realllly dont know wat to think im fed up google dont bloody help i normally have a 28 day cycle bt now im thinking all sorts last month was horrible had 2 cycles am really wanting to have a baby but thinking mayb its not meant to b i dnt want to b negative either everytime i go toilet i expecting it to arrive did hav symptoms couple days ago like it was coming bt nothing now i feel nothing at all