Too much temptation to message my ex husband for answers 😠

I am going to be filing for divorce because of how my husband treated me but I'm laid up in bed 26+3 pregnant , crying because I thought I had it all and I keep replaying the moment he first kicked off and I thought "he doesn't love you, you've been made a fool". Then my heart dropped. I just want answers but at the same time I want him to know the damage hes done , leaving me to be a single mum ... A son without a normal loving dad.

Its so hard not to have a go at him or ask questions for closure cause any time I've tried that he gets funny and cuts me out of his life, swaps it round making out I'm a wuss by saying things like "you're an adult and they are just words, if they get to you that much then that's your own problem ".

Any suggestions what I should do?

I feel so down 😕