Just venting

been trying to conceive. For almost two months now. This month i had spotted one day. And only. Could. See it when i wipe then a week. Later. Spotted. Again and again only can see on tissue. So i really. Thought this was the month for that bfp. But maybe. Not ?Then last night i started bleeding. Its medium. Light. I have. No cramps. Or sore boobs and i haven't. Had cramps or nothing since i got of birth. Control. Two to 3 months ago. Another. Things lately i've. Been having dreams. About having. A baby or taking a test and it coming out postive i just hope that one day that dream can actually happen