On Monday I was informed that I had my first outbreak of herpes. I was diganosed with type 1 which is the kind that you normally get in your mouth like cold sores. However  I've got it on my vagina. I've been with My so for 7 years. He has cheated in the past but we got past it. I honestly can't even explain what I'm going through right now. Yes I have read many many people have it and that it's not that big of a deal anymore. But for me it is a huge deal! I loved sex I had confidence in myself and my sexuality. Now I feel so ugly. I feel gross and like I never want to have sex again.