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I've been on the pill for nearly 4 years now. I went on it initially for my acne and irregular periods and the pill did wonders for both👍 (really helped my self confidence) but just recently I read an article about teenagers having higher risk of depression and it's something I wanted to talk about. For the first two years I'm on the pill I was miserable, I had a bad home life so I accepted I was miserable for that reason. But now I have a pretty good life but I have the same feelings. I was driving one day and I had this thought of just ramming the car into a fucking telephone pole. It surprised me I keep having those fleeting thoughts that I don't want to and wouldn't act on... I'm thinking about getting off the pill but I'm not sure if it would help or not. I feel pretty lost.