I feel like a pain to everyone. I seem to constantly be described as needy. I annoy my boyfriend, my sister doesn't reply to my texts and my friends don't really talk to me. I feel so lost and I have such a sad gnawing feeling in the pit of my stomach that's telling me that I'm not good enough, that I'm all alone and that I'm not going to be okay. I hurt inside and out constantly and it gets so much worse whenever people push me away. I'm breaking, actually I'm on the verge of shattering into thousands of pieces. I think that maybe I'm already completely broken. I just wish someone could turn around and notice how I feel and give me a hug and tell me that I'm going to be okay. But I just can't see that happening. I wish Mike would sometimes realise how much I love him and that I need him to help me stop being broken. When he focuses on me he makes me feel so much better, so alive but when he ignores me or forgets how I feel sometimes I feel so much worse about the whole situation. That's my rant over but I still feel sucky.