Pregnant and depressed. . Sorry, rambled post.

I do not know what to do. . My boyfriend and I are going through so much in these last 6 months.. I'm not sure how to juggle it all. He's super depressed and pretty much neglecting my needs unless it has to do with food. 😕

We went from struggling TTC, his father ending up with cancer and him trying to quit smoking for our baby on the way.. but we seemed to lose our connection these last few months. He barely touches me. We're always on our phones; I'm sure that's not healthy either. He won't even be intimate with me. I have to ASK for his affection and it's so depressing.

The last time we had sex, he didn't even want too and it felt so wrong. I ended up breaking down and crying. He gives strangers nicer and kinder smiles than he gives me.

Puts me in a bad mood and he wonders what is wrong.

I always express to him I meet his needs all the time and I don't even ask for much. I feel like I can't ask for anything because I do not work. I stay home and take care of our home, he doesn't even have to lift a finger unless he has maintenance to do around the house.

I honestly do not know what to do anymore. It worries me that this won't get any better and our daughter is due in February. It's hard not to stress all the time.

I moved away from home to come and be with him so I don't have many friends to hang out with. Just a stay at home girlfriend because he didn't really want me working.

I'm sorry none of this makes sense and is so rambled. I just needed to vent. 🙁