I'm lost 😪😔

Well I went to this guy house and we were watching netfliex and chilling 😍 and I always look at him and turn away and he says I saw you and he asked me do you have something to say I was no but I wanted to tell him I got hella feelings. 😢 but it's hard and he put his phone and away and he was close to my face and we starting kissing ☺️ he was my first kiss and I was top him kissing and grinding on him 😳 and he was touching my ass and it was the best night of my life but I had to walk home and it was like 12:00 something am and I wanted to sleep  over but his mom sad no but I had to walk alone and he was like are you gunna be okay i was like yeah I'll be fine he said are u sure I'm happy he cares about me 💜 I got hella feelings for this one boy idk what to do 😭😭😭 help me