Am I crazy?

I've lost to pregnancies last year totally devastating. Been trying for rainbow since September of last year with no luck completely heart broken. One top of it all I went to my husband's sister gender reveal party she's having a boy by the way which completely made me depressed and sad and remembering what I could have had last year if I wouldn't have miscarried totally messed me up. My question is fire hard-working TTCER"S out there to you find your self something purchasing baby items picking out baby stuff for reveal parties and baby showers and stuff like that you would want one Pinterest. Want to know then I'm not the only one and that I'm not a crazy person. Tell me your stories!!!