where to go from here...

Have you ever just felt so sad, so full of despair that you weren't quite sure what to do with yourself. I have. I feel this way every month. On those days I convince myself I've created life, only to start bleeding once again. I feel this day every time a commercial comes on that reminds me just how easy it is for most women to conceive. I feel this way every time I see a show that hints at infertility and remind myself how crushed I am all over again. I am so alone and so sad alll the time. How can I be a woman when I can not even create life, the one thing I was put on this earth to do. I cry constantly. I am not sure what will happen what can happen all I know is the despair swallows me whole and I feel subhuman. I feel less than. I feel alone.