Ugh!! Why me?

↞ηιcσℓε♡↠ • 14 very long years of ttc! Not giving up though!!
My period is due in 3 days. I've had less symptoms but the ones I have are out of the norm for me! I think I had a faint hpt 9dpo but I'm not sure cuz I haven't had any darker ones. I'm cramping like I'm going to start and have been since ovulation! I'm really sad more sad than I ever have been. I was hoping this month would really be it too! On to month 92 of ttc, 7 years and 8 months!