Today it's been a really difficult day, I feel exhausted and heartbroken. I nev3r thought or expected to feel like this while expecting my first baby. I feel absolutely isolated, I  need time to think about why I'm feeling this way. You are the only person i can share this experience with but quite often I find myself having unrealistic expectations. I wish you could see how your indifference and lack of suppport makes me feel, you are my husband, my person and I just feel completely lonely. 

We both deserve better than this, we need better! I need time to think about all the things I can do to improve our relationship or to decide if I want out. We have been together for 6 years and today more than ever I feel we are growing apart, I have pushed you far away from me and I don't know how to bring you back to me. I don't feel wanted or desired, you have no interest in touching me anymore and that makes me feel empty and worthless. I have allowed myself to depend on you and I need to fix it.  It hurts me to know that you are sleeping next door but you are not with me. I'm here on my own, with a baby boy in my belly and feeling absolutely lonely...

I don't know what to do but we deserve better!

Note: this is honestly how I feel, not sure if I'm right or wrong but I need to get it out😭😭😭