Haven't been to OBGYN since my loss

Allison • 25 years old, 2 miscarriages in ‘15 & ‘16. Married 💍. 💙 KJS 6/30/18 💙 BBS 4/29/22
I miscarried exactly 2 months ago at 6-7 weeks gestation. The day of the miscarriage, I was told to come back in a week for a blood draw to see how my HCG levels were dropping, and to check up on some other numbers.
I never went. 
I can't pinpoint exactly why. Part of it is because I don't want to walk in and see pregnant people everywhere. Maybe it's also because the last time I was there, I was still holding on to the tiniest bit of hope that things were going to be okay. I'm not sure. I just haven't gone back, even though I need to. Now I almost feel like they'll be upset with me for not going back when I was supposed to. 👎👎