Hooking up with the Baby Daddy

Karlee
Well, I never thought I would do it but I did it...I hooked up with my daughters father (never married) I went to his moms house to drop her off to him since he was staying with her and we had a long conversation about court and our feelings then he just gave me a hug and it happened and then it happened again when I went and picked her up and then again when I picked her up the next weekend he had her 🙃 I love this man so much but he's done me so wrong in the past and it's hard to forget that. It's not like I can just kick him out of my life cause of our daughter. I just can't seem to get over him. At. All. 
He's a user and manipulative, I know this and I still do it. He's a 27 year old man with no car and didn't have a license until this August. He left for 10 WEEKS because I told him ok on 50/50 visitation because of the no car and no licsense and he had no cell phone at the time. He had unlimited access to her but chose not to see her. He complains all the time about child support and demands to see my receipts for the stuff I buy. I'm just over it but the connection we have sexually and emotionally is very powerful. I'm just at a loss. 😕😫