I don't wear makeup often and it's not because I feel like I have some sort of natural beauty. I love the way I look in makeup I always feel pretty when I wear it, but I don't do it often because of days like today. I looked in the mirror today and saw what my fiancé sees every day when he looks at me. I saw myself as beautiful it doesn't happen every day or often at all, but when it does I feel like I've won something. I feel like I'm finally getting better from years of self loathing. I'm not writing this to brag, but rather to maybe inspire some other people to share their stories of when they finally realized how beautiful they are.