Body shameing & depression while pregnant (pics included, may be TMI to some)

Members make me feel so shitty about myself. I was talking about how I gained about 40 pounds and how all the weight is all going to my butt, legs belly and boobs. Then they all started pointing out all my stretch marks and saying my thighs are fat now, my face is getting fat, etc. I was 105 pounds pre pregnancy, now I'm 145-150 and everyone makes me feel awful about it. I eat the same as I always have too since getting over my anorexia.. I've struggled with eating disorders all my life, I was anorexic and would go days without eating, being a size xxs/xs up until the past 2-3 years I've finally gotten better and started eating and gaining healthy weight. Now I can't even look in the mirror without wanting to cry, I feel huge thanks to them and looking back at old pictures. And I keep getting bigger and bigger and more and more marks magically appear over night; I've done everything to prevent them too. Nothing prevents them.. Stretch mark creams, lotions, oils you name it. Looking at my stretch marks makes me feel so shitty. I even get them in places that haven't even grown/gotten bigger..? I don't feel beautiful at all anymore. I've also found myself slowly not allowing myself to eat as much either now and I know I have to for this baby, it's like the illness is creeping back into me. Am I wrong for feeling this way. I even butter myself up with coco butter, coco oil, Shea butter, bio oil, stretch mark cream, and nothing seems to help. They keep getting worse and worse. These are some photos, before I was pregnant and now.. And my stretch marks :/ no negativity please. I feel like I'm the only one who looks so bad pregnant and has such awful looking marks.