abortion-so sad

I just had an abortion yesterday bc I just gave birth 8 months ago & I didn't want any child to have to suffer bc I wasn't careful w my husband. He was just so mean to me when I said I was sad . I just hate the way he talks to me. I told him everyone handles grievances diff n he said well I don't grieve & if u didn't wanna do it then u shouldn't have but he was the one who sent me a txt while at work saying you're gonna have to get an abortion n I said no it's my body I'll do what feels right. He never not once said anything close to, "I know what I said but do what feels right to u bc I helped make the baby too." He has since apologized saying he doesn't know how to handle it but I'm already going through depression just with this marriage & now this. Why can't he just be supportive right now? I took the pain physically & emotionally so let me grieve as long as I don't spiral out of control! I'm not looking for judgement, just reassurance that things will be ok.