Scared to have my baby

So I'm so terrified to have my baby I'm so excited and can't wait to see him but I'm scared and it's not like I haven't done this twice before and naturally with both my girls so I know what to expect but I'm scared I really think it's because my biggest supporter (my mom) won't be there she passed last year in October and I keep thinking that imma past away giving birth it doesn't make it any better that some friends of mines keep bringing up that you are closer to death when having a baby is anybody else scared or is it just me