So egared to know if I am having a boy or girl & to listen to the heartbeat 😭😭🙈

Since October 5 haven't Hurd my baby heartbeat and I am jus feening to listen to it and I play the recordings on my phone  all the time but I wanna hear it everyday so I am thinking of buying a fetal Doppler...I am so unpaitent I can't wait wish there will give me a sonagram appointment sooner I have to wait until November 14 for me to find  out what I am having that's far away 17 more days ughh can it jus come sooner ..My baby moves so much inside cause I am slim & thin u can say skinny..I'm 19 weeks & 2 days I am a first time mom I wanna know what my baby is all ready fiancé says relax but I jus can't I am egared to know 😭😭😭it makes me so sad cause on here many of u females take that test thing or a vaginal sound thing so u guys know what ur having I don't know yet & I am un patient & I wanna know so bad !!!!!