I'm so fed up. I feel so uncared for 24/7 and so irrelevant to everyone in my life. I spend all of my days and nights caring for my kids, which is nbd, I love them to the moon and back! But I haven't had a day that made me feel like an actual person in 6m-1yr. My SO is out partying with his friends for a Halloween thing and I'm home alone with the kids. He used to invite me but didn't even bother this time and is apparently spending the night too... Knowing I have anxiety issues and can't sleep without feeling safe. My family had a little get together today and I went but was literally forced to leave early because there was too many people for the game they wanted to play and they didn't wanna deal with my kids while we played the game. I have literally zero friends because none of the "friends" I used to have spend time with me anymore because they all don't have kids. I've tried to make new friends but nobody ever sticks around. So I'm alone, all day every day, with zero adult contact. I just feel so unimportant. :/