I'm so upset rite now. whatever I do I can't stop thinking about it.

Few days before my period I Had sex with my ex but it's wasn't like I wanted to he made me. This happen in the beginning of may. At the end of may I find out I was pregnant. Maybe from my new bf r my ex. Idk wat to do. I kno it's 2 late to have an abortion. I'm so stress out because I kno my new bf going to leave me if the baby is not his. My ex had mail by my house n the point was for him to pick it up n leave. But he had a different plan I c. I'm so stress out rite now. My due day is feb n as the days get closer a closer I get more stress out. I'm so annoy cause I kno he don't want me he is jus upset that I left me n he can't find no1 to b  with. I was so happy when I find out I was pregnant. My ex call my new bf n tell him that we had sex in may n now he don't think the baby is his. Nothing is going good with him so he have to try n mess up what I have. I'm so happy me n my ex is not 2gether cause I c the point of person he is. So evil. He want my new bf to leave me so I can run back to him. I realize that he called my new bf jus to mess up my life. He ask me if I was pregnant n can we work thinks out. I told him. Yea I was pregnant but not from him n no I don't want to b with u. I kno god to some peolple in our lives for a person but I don't understand y he put him in mines. After my first miscarriage with my ex n I'm so happy to know I have another change. A little me. Have a family that I never really hade grown up. If the baby is not my bf Idk what to do I can't revive for him. N I kno for a fast that if my ex have a gf he wouldn't every look my way. I don't want to struggle with a child like my mom did. Most of her life. I regret ever meetin my ex. He was so sweet me to n I fell for it. After I told my ex we can't work think out he talk to me so mean n disrespectful. It make me cry like a baby. I don't understand how something that says they care about u be so hurtful.. god I wish I take the plan b right aftere n my ex had sex. I didn't really think about it cause I have my period 3-4 day later but looking it up on google making me question it. I think about an portion be but I was to excited to hear the heartbeat ❤️❤️❤️ c his lil face n feel him kick me. I was so excited when to go to the dr for a sonogram  r  whatever u call it. Look at the baby. I couldn't do. It would hurt me so much. My ex don't care about me n idk y he piton me though all this stress. I can't sleep at night cause I'm thinking about it all the time now. I. Have 108 days to deliver. I was with my new bf for 5 year we broke up cause he wouldn't marry me for 6 mouths I was with my ex. I left my ex to be with my new bf cause we was going to get marry. Now my new bf don't ever talk about marry AT ALL  n when I bring it up he doesn't Even look at me. It's so crazy to me cause I could of had my ex beat up bad cause of all the hurtful thing he said but I didn't. I didn't think it was Worth the drama n I didn't want to put his mother though a lot worrying about him.