Today is suppose to be a very exciting day  I'm finding out the gender of my baby with my husband ..but all I can think about is Thursday when we bury my grandfather.. some people are very close to their grandparents I was one of them. He was always up and working and fixing something everyday   He was never lazy. I keep thinking about the little things I'm gonna miss about him. His slippers he use to wear a lot and you could hear them all over the house...and when he would always use this one cup for water he would put a coaster on top of it so flies wouldn't get in it..and the way he would laugh or say everybody's name. I still can't believe it's all real. He was up and doing whatever he wanted Saturday and Sunday he passed suddenly. Thursday is going to be tough...