so me and my boyfriend have been together for almost 6years and things havent been good the past year he cheated on me with the girl i thought was my friend i forgave him but i still feel insecure mostly knowing that he is good friends with that girls brother so hehas to see her sometime he told me is not ganna happen but i have all these mix feeling he tells me to get over it and to trust him but i just cant i love him so much thats the reason i stayed even when he cheated on point is i can seem to make him understand  how i feel he blames me a lot for a fight we had and i accendently scartch him in the face so know he has a mark every time he has the chance he blames me about it but when i tell him about him cheating he says is different he tells me that noone can see that what should i do i love him a lot but sometimes i just wish he would understand.  i feel like he blames me more for not beign able to give him a kid. please any advice im going crazy. ps. sorry for the long paragraph😢💔😰