Advice please :-(

Went today for my regular check up and talked to my doctor about what I wanted to do. This is my 3rd child. First pregnancy was a c-section due to baby being breech. 2nd was vbac. 1st. Delivery, i was so drugged due to the c-section that i didn't get to hold my daughter till 10 pm that night and i had her at 1040 that morning. My second delivery, I had to stay in the bed due to internal monitoring and I had to get an epidural after non stop contractions and back labor from pitocin. 18 hours of labor and 30 mins of pushing and I had my son, but I was so out of it. I was mentally and physically drained. My labor progressed so much easier with my daughter before I went to the hospital at 6cm dilated and discovered she was breech. I walked around and even slept through the contractions until I went to the hospital.

My doctor told me due to my c-section, I needed to come to the hospital as soon as labor starts so me and the baby can be closely monitored. So I will be stuck in the bed again. She also highly advised that I get an epidural right away as well because if there are any complications I would be rushed for an emergency c-section and I would be put to sleep. So she told me the only choice I have is to decide if I'm going to risk being put to sleep or just getting the epidural. I know there is a chance of me hemmoraging and I understand there are risks. I'm completely crushed, I wanted to be more in control of my delivery this time. Has anyone had a similar situation and they were given different birthing options???