So sad

Lovely • IG: Plentifully.day TTC #4. Sept 2014 tubal reversal. Feb 2016 HSG: blocked tubes. May 2016 IVF: failed. Aug 2016 BFP turned to 4th loss
After multiple faints that didn't get darker it seems as if ive started spotting, I'm guessing chemical. Doc did blood work but with the holiday the wait is longer. I just want to curl into a ball and go to sleep but I have to work tonight 😖😢