not pregnant

This was the first month ttc.. and I started my period this morning... 2 days earlier than my expected date.. and I am usually 2 days late so technically I'm 4 days earlier... I can't explain the amount of sadness I feel right now.. I see pregnant women EVERYWHERE. Or babies EVERYWHERE...😭☹️️ i know it's only one month of trying but I'm so ready and full of love for our future baby..