Disappointed again 😢😢

Kai • Hello Im Kai. Me and the hubby been together 4yrs married 1 year. I have a 9yr old girl but Trying to conceive and start our full blended family. Here for support.
Been trying for 2yrs and still no luck. Thought I'll be pregnant this month too but nope my period is here. I'm disappointed every month. I don't know why I get my hopes up. I'm so jealous seeing other women pregnant with their 2nd 3rd or 4th child. I just want to give my husband his first child 😩😩😢😢😢😢😪😭😭