I wanna die!!!!

I don't want to deal with a freaking man who'll be living with his parents forever and that I have to end up taking care of! 😫💦  He gave me 4 children already and YES! I love them with all my heart and put them before everything in his world. I never have time for myself now but It's because I am stuck caring for everyone else's needs and cleaning up after everyone and this effin house that ain't even ours. It's his parents house and they don't ever say thank you or seem to appreciate anything! 😔 The mother already has an issue with nearly killing us all the time due to her dementia. She leaves the oven on and stove etc! I am so stressed! My "husband" breaks walls when he's upset and I am stuck having to try and fix it all. I'm tired of it!!! I just...I wanna freaking die!