I don't think i can do this..

I just had my little 35 weeker july 5, 2016 he's 4 months now and moving so fast doing everything ahead of his time. You know why?? I am 9 weeks pregnant that's why.. Smh. I have officially gotten pregnant on every birth control i have used my first son in 2009 a 28 weeker birth control pills, my 2nd son recent mirena iud had to be removed caused it was lodged somewhere now depo. I didn't want another baby my pregnancy was HORRIBLE. i can't do this again